[ he's hard to find tonight, but if wis'adel is persistent, or if she knows all the saddest places to look - she'll find him at the top of the lighthouse.
he's standing there silently, right up against the railing. ]
[well first of all she probably needed anders' help to get up here after she pushed herself too much today, her body is still pretty much running on empty after the other day. but. here she is regardless, slouching down to sit against the railing.]
It sucks, but... must be harder on a guy like you. It's my job to keep my men safe, if I can, but-- it's my job to send 'em into the fray, too. Not to patch them up after.
[and then there's oripathy, there's the way it disproportionately affects sarkaz-- so many of them die, all the time. she was born amidst death. grew up amidst death. she learned to kill before being killed, she lives with an unknown time limit, a ticking clock within her blood.
sarkaz have always lived hand in hand with death.]
...this fucking place. [she grumbles, angrily.] You should've-- your death was supposed to be the last you ever had to see of it.
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w2, SATURDAY
he's standing there silently, right up against the railing. ]
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... gonna make it through tomorrow?
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he's just shut off entirely, that nihility is hitting him so, so hard. ]
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[reaches out to whap his leg.]
Hey. Medic. On alert.
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... My apologies, Wis'adel. What did you say?
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... I'm not gonna ask you stupid questions.
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[ ... ]
You wouldn't like the answers, anyway. That's just as well.
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What hasn't been said about losing someone?
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[...]
... I don't really know her. Tell me what she's like.
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[ ... ]
She just recently guessed about my sight.
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I didn't know how hard a hit that was gonna be.
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[ honestly. his voice is rough. ]
She... [ he doesn't even know where to go with this, his brain's just shut off. ] I've seen so many people I care for die.
[ not just here. in his life. maybe it's just a straw that breaks the camel's back situation. ]
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[and then there's oripathy, there's the way it disproportionately affects sarkaz-- so many of them die, all the time. she was born amidst death. grew up amidst death. she learned to kill before being killed, she lives with an unknown time limit, a ticking clock within her blood.
sarkaz have always lived hand in hand with death.]
...this fucking place. [she grumbles, angrily.] You should've-- your death was supposed to be the last you ever had to see of it.