[ god, if only fidelio knew how much jiaoqiu relates to this - but. maybe he can know. ]
When I was alive, my General was the only thing that mattered to me. Curing her was my only purpose. [ softer, more delicate - because talking about feixiao still hurts. ]
I died for her. I put myself in the way of the wolf, and made sure that she would live in exchange for my worthless life. A rotting right hand, detached from the body it served, so that the body could continue on.
[ ... ]
I understand, Fidelio. But I think - when we do these things, the weight doesn't just hurt us.
Well, let me say this much, in this vein. I enjoy having you around - your perspective is valuable to me. It isn't just Basilio that cares about your existence.
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When I was alive, my General was the only thing that mattered to me. Curing her was my only purpose. [ softer, more delicate - because talking about feixiao still hurts. ]
I died for her. I put myself in the way of the wolf, and made sure that she would live in exchange for my worthless life. A rotting right hand, detached from the body it served, so that the body could continue on.
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I understand, Fidelio. But I think - when we do these things, the weight doesn't just hurt us.
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huh. their personalities are so different on the surface that he'd really never considered they might have something so substantial in common. ]
...Yeah. Sort of get that now. [ ... ] At least, more than I did.
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It's a lesson I am still learning. [ a sigh. ] It's difficult, isn't it.
[ to try and see yourself as worth something, maybe. ]
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Even when you know it in your head, 's hard to feel like it's true.
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[ his tail swishes back and forth, thoughtfully. ]
Shall we try together, even so? If not for ourselves, for Basilio?
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And I mean— I am tryin', not bein' as reckless as I used to be.
[ he at least held himself back from jumping into the fray last trial, even if he came close to it. ]
Just... any time it comes down to me or him, if it can't be both of us, it's still always gonna be him.
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I understand. [ genuinely. if it were feixiao - if it was jing yuan, and he did try, there. ]
I'm sure I don't have to tell you how that makes him feel.
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Well, let me say this much, in this vein. I enjoy having you around - your perspective is valuable to me. It isn't just Basilio that cares about your existence.
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[ another little tail bump. ]
Now, come with me and help me make food for your brother, hm?
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he glances back toward basilio for a moment, but then nods. ]
All right.