[ i tried so hard to respond to this tag at 1AM yesterday and was like haha! i am GENIUS! and then ended up not sending it because in fact i am not a genius. ]
...I would suggest you return closer to my time, so that we might have more time to make arrangements. But I understand it might interrupt your progress with Feixiao's condition.
[ jiaoqiu would still have to make the journey to the luofu from the yaoqing, but they would still have their jade abaci for communications. he imagines he may have to loop fu xuan in as well—he can't imagine what sort of ripple effect their return might have on the matrix of prescience ultima. ]
Perhaps we can consult our higher being as well, to see what they have to say about the conditions of your return. [ save us jonas... jonas save us.
it's a very difficult decision to make, especially without full oversight of what had happened after jiaoqiu had died. it's not that the innocent lives lost in the invasion are worth any less than feixiao's, however she is also critical to the safety of so many more. there are difficult, but necessary calculations to be made. ]
no, that's a good idea, though. he hadn't even thought of returning much earlier. he's clearly thinking about it, trying to decide if it would destroy anything too thoroughly. he'd just have to be careful about what he said.
there's a grouchy emotion when he suggests they consult god, though. ]
I wish that I knew what happened after my death... but I would not be opposed to returning closer to your time. [ sigh. ] I will leave the talking to you, as for as the god goes.
I contacted him, a while ago, asking for options. I was angry to know that we would not be able to travel to other worlds, and he spoke to me as if I was throwing a tantrum and calling him names. A good leader would not resort to passive aggressive jabs such as well, you can go tell everybody I'm terrible, then when faced with real concerns.
[ it makes more sense now because gabe is like, twelve, but he doesn't know that at this point. he also does not ever quite forgive him for it but it's fine. ]
... Being told that I must wait to die to see the people I care for again upset me.
[ for someone who has such a tenuous grip on how much he wants to live at any time, it was. a lot. ]
I see. I do have to wonder who around here is in charge.
[ they find out in two days, but. he would get that sometimes you have expectations of someone, and when they leave a terrible impression at a terrible time, it's not something readily forgotten. ]
I'm sorry it was not a fruitful conversation. ...And I'm sorry you had to wait so long.
[ watching him spiral week after week hadn't been easy. even with the letters, it's just not the same. ]
I am well accustomed to waiting. [ it sucks to do, but he's used to it. ]
I don't need you to apologize. You did nothing wrong. [ ... ] I suppose I don't understand why you aren't more angry - but that is just like you.
[ not in a bad way, he just... trusts jing yuan to be a good leader, to be calm in the face of the worst of things. maybe it's a little hand hold out, like - if you're feeling poorly, he'd listen. ]
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...I would suggest you return closer to my time, so that we might have more time to make arrangements. But I understand it might interrupt your progress with Feixiao's condition.
[ jiaoqiu would still have to make the journey to the luofu from the yaoqing, but they would still have their jade abaci for communications. he imagines he may have to loop fu xuan in as well—he can't imagine what sort of ripple effect their return might have on the matrix of prescience ultima. ]
Perhaps we can consult our higher being as well, to see what they have to say about the conditions of your return. [ save us jonas... jonas save us.
it's a very difficult decision to make, especially without full oversight of what had happened after jiaoqiu had died. it's not that the innocent lives lost in the invasion are worth any less than feixiao's, however she is also critical to the safety of so many more. there are difficult, but necessary calculations to be made. ]
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no, that's a good idea, though. he hadn't even thought of returning much earlier. he's clearly thinking about it, trying to decide if it would destroy anything too thoroughly. he'd just have to be careful about what he said.
there's a grouchy emotion when he suggests they consult god, though. ]
I wish that I knew what happened after my death... but I would not be opposed to returning closer to your time. [ sigh. ] I will leave the talking to you, as for as the god goes.
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but he is curiously latching onto this grouchy emotion in the meantime... ]
...Ah, what happened?
[ between him and god......... ]
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I contacted him, a while ago, asking for options. I was angry to know that we would not be able to travel to other worlds, and he spoke to me as if I was throwing a tantrum and calling him names. A good leader would not resort to passive aggressive jabs such as well, you can go tell everybody I'm terrible, then when faced with real concerns.
[ it makes more sense now because gabe is like, twelve, but he doesn't know that at this point. he also does not ever quite forgive him for it but it's fine. ]
... Being told that I must wait to die to see the people I care for again upset me.
[ for someone who has such a tenuous grip on how much he wants to live at any time, it was. a lot. ]
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I see. I do have to wonder who around here is in charge.
[ they find out in two days, but. he would get that sometimes you have expectations of someone, and when they leave a terrible impression at a terrible time, it's not something readily forgotten. ]
I'm sorry it was not a fruitful conversation. ...And I'm sorry you had to wait so long.
[ watching him spiral week after week hadn't been easy. even with the letters, it's just not the same. ]
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I am well accustomed to waiting. [ it sucks to do, but he's used to it. ]
I don't need you to apologize. You did nothing wrong. [ ... ] I suppose I don't understand why you aren't more angry - but that is just like you.
[ not in a bad way, he just... trusts jing yuan to be a good leader, to be calm in the face of the worst of things. maybe it's a little hand hold out, like - if you're feeling poorly, he'd listen. ]