...Yeah. I don't think I could rest easy going anywhere else.
[have to finish the job.
He smooths his hand over his mouth and goes for another chug. It's a thought that puts a cold chunk of ice in his gut. What else is he supposed to do? Ditch the gang and go on vacation?
[ yeah. he feels that. his own melancholy makes his chest hurt. ]
I could not and would not go anywhere but back to the Yaoqing. [ his home - he misses it desperately. he misses feixiao, moze, all of his people, and couldn't think of going somewhere else, but... ]
Still. [ ... ] There is a part of me that throws a fit like a child when I think of losing all of you.
[There's a fierce loyalty owed to the people you gave your life fighting for. If he gets to do it again, maybe the outcome can be much less grim.]
Fuck, you're telling me. I can't think about it overmuch without getting misty-eyed. [He laughs a little, subdued.] Funny, considering how I was convinced the lot of you were either insane or one big coma hallucination.
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he's all healed up, but his eyes are still fucked, as of this thread. he's got them closed, since he doesn't really need them... his ear flicks. ]
I feel as though I've barely sat down all day. [ a little amused. and... sad, at the thought, too. ]
... I assume you'll be going home.
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[have to finish the job.
He smooths his hand over his mouth and goes for another chug. It's a thought that puts a cold chunk of ice in his gut. What else is he supposed to do? Ditch the gang and go on vacation?
The melancholy compounds.]
What about you?
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I could not and would not go anywhere but back to the Yaoqing. [ his home - he misses it desperately. he misses feixiao, moze, all of his people, and couldn't think of going somewhere else, but... ]
Still. [ ... ] There is a part of me that throws a fit like a child when I think of losing all of you.
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No, I couldn't imagine you would.
[There's a fierce loyalty owed to the people you gave your life fighting for. If he gets to do it again, maybe the outcome can be much less grim.]
Fuck, you're telling me. I can't think about it overmuch without getting misty-eyed. [He laughs a little, subdued.] Funny, considering how I was convinced the lot of you were either insane or one big coma hallucination.
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Haha. You're used to the tail and ears now, aren't you? [ teasing. ] ... Have you and Shadowheart talked about it?
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[And ah. There's a flicker of conflicted emotion. Checks date of this pc....]
Not yet. [Not directly.] But we both understand there's an end date coming up.
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There is. [ Basilio and I have spoken around it, too. ] I don't want to give anybody false hope, but... I will be trying to find all of you. Somehow.