[ Marcoh isn't looking, gaze avoidant to the cup he'd just dropped. Broken again, go figure. But he's silent and tense even as Jiaoqiu speaks, unsure of how to respond. He hadn't broken this mirror because he's aware enough of the consequences now, but fuck if it sucks having it be brought up. He doesn't mean to forget but maybe he'd like it stop being brought up.
But he should say something, maybe. He can use his injury conveniently to not speak sometimes but not now. ]
Because I don't believe that you're violently out of control. [ tail swish. ] There are reasons for what you do, and I do not intend to give you a reason.
I've seen how gentle you try to be. I trust in that.
[ And it really is a kindness -- just the dark cloud hanging over him is really just how utterly violent he got with it. Reasons, biting back is one thing. He didn't have to go so overboard with it, and the brief lapse in his mind is scary to look back on.
That being said, it also just feels a little wrong to be given the same chance as someone like Jiaoqiu, a healer who gave his life to save his people. But. ]
[ I'm kidding really it's just that people aren't so kind to him in terms of his inner character unless it's Venere so. Every time someone starts on that he can only be like you sound like my sister. ]
Not sure you'd want to. I've caused plenty of trouble for her.
[ As Jiaoqiu just saw-heard. It's his fault his sister also kind of has to be a fugitive. ]
[ throws all of them into the SEA be NICE to marcoh!!! ]
Ahh, tch. [ waves his hands at him like in a sort of shoo motion, exasperated. ] Don't you start on this too. Not a single one of you are going to scare me with trouble.
Perhaps on purpose is not the issue. My point is that I will not suddenly turn on you just because of that trouble, whether it's intentional or not. That would be ridiculous.
If I were that weak-willed, I would have retired as Feixiao's healer a very long time ago.
[ Okay. He'll relent for now if only because making a small argument out of it isn't good for either of them in their current states, especially not for his voice. Even if he still inherently disagrees due to stuff but also all the CYOA nonsense, it's easier to relent than not. ]
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[ Marcoh isn't looking, gaze avoidant to the cup he'd just dropped. Broken again, go figure. But he's silent and tense even as Jiaoqiu speaks, unsure of how to respond. He hadn't broken this mirror because he's aware enough of the consequences now, but fuck if it sucks having it be brought up. He doesn't mean to forget but maybe he'd like it stop being brought up.
But he should say something, maybe. He can use his injury conveniently to not speak sometimes but not now. ]
... Why not?
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Because I don't believe that you're violently out of control. [ tail swish. ] There are reasons for what you do, and I do not intend to give you a reason.
I've seen how gentle you try to be. I trust in that.
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[ It's a nice gesture. ]
... I've been... angry before. But I don't know about that angry. It was just, days before I died.
[ Like. Maybe two days before. He hasn't had much all time to process it let alone see it again in third person. ]
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[ carefully sweeping up the cup. ]
I can't say that I condone murder, of course. But there are people who - hm, I believe I've heard it phrased as fuck around and find out.
And I can't say that I wouldn't look away from the consequences suffered by someone who found out.
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Hard not to think about, with the whole "redemption" deal.
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I'm aware you don't believe me, but I will not change my opinion on this.
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[ And it really is a kindness -- just the dark cloud hanging over him is really just how utterly violent he got with it. Reasons, biting back is one thing. He didn't have to go so overboard with it, and the brief lapse in his mind is scary to look back on.
That being said, it also just feels a little wrong to be given the same chance as someone like Jiaoqiu, a healer who gave his life to save his people. But. ]
I haven't given up on trying for it, yet.
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[ he sets the pieces of the tea cup down on the counter, carefully. he has somehow not cut himself by doing this. ]
You'll have to forgive me for not giving up on convincing you to be kinder to yourself.
[ yea yea he knows he's a hypocrite but listen ]
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...You all sound like Venere.
[
Unfortunately if anyone is even a fraction of nice to him you get sisterzoned apparently. ]
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She sounds like a smart woman. [ tail flick. ] I'd take it as a high compliment to be even distantly compared to her.
[ is sisterzoned ]
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Not sure you'd want to. I've caused plenty of trouble for her.
[ As Jiaoqiu just saw-heard. It's his fault his sister also kind of has to be a fugitive. ]
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Ahh, tch. [ waves his hands at him like in a sort of shoo motion, exasperated. ] Don't you start on this too. Not a single one of you are going to scare me with trouble.
I'd be willing to say she would feel the same.
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[ LET HIM CLEAN UP HIS OWN BROKEN CUP!! FUCK YOU!! Just kind of in this silent stand-still like let me throw away the cup even as he's shoo'd. ]
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Oh, go on. [ clean it up if it makes you feel better... ] Are you causing it on purpose?
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...It's hard to say I insisted I could take care of her by accident. Or that I killed a man by accident too.
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[ folds his arms. ]
Perhaps on purpose is not the issue. My point is that I will not suddenly turn on you just because of that trouble, whether it's intentional or not. That would be ridiculous.
If I were that weak-willed, I would have retired as Feixiao's healer a very long time ago.
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Okay.
[ Okay. He'll relent for now if only because making a small argument out of it isn't good for either of them in their current states, especially not for his voice. Even if he still inherently disagrees due to stuff but also all the CYOA nonsense, it's easier to relent than not. ]
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tail swishy. ]
... Alright. [ sigh. ] I care about you, Marcoh. Just so that you know.
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I care about you too, Jiaoqiu.
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jiaoqiu smiles at that, though, and reaches to pat his arm. ]
... Rest your voice, now. I'll make you a new cup.
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...Okay.
[ Promise he won't break it this time. ]
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he will go make more tea! and then sit quietly with marcoh for a while, just to recover... and i'll come for you in the new week :itspink: ]