Or rather, I'm not so angry with him as much as I am the situation. [ ... ] I do wish that he hadn't been hunted down like a dog and executed in front of everybody. That bothered me.
In a perfect world, I would have preferred that more people had known about it before it happened. A good amount of us would have liked to say goodbye, but... I understand that is not always possible. [ he shifts, rubbing at his wrists. ] As I told Ellie - I dislike being reminded of the unpredictability of the battlefield.
[ having to see a midtrial and then an off schedule execution made everything feel a little out of control, and that is why he shut down, but... it had to be done. he can't really be angry. ]
But that is my problem, not Uruha's, and not Saber's.
You can still say that some things made you unhappy.
But Yoji is prone to shutting people out, or assuming he is disliked, especially for this. He would sooner assume you want your space away from him than the opposite.
I'm assuming it was probably the same for them both, but I just really felt like I needed you and them to know that I like you better than either of them do?
[ yeah, he's thinking about things yesterday. anyway. ]
This has been an eventful week, and we aren't even halfway through it. [ a beat. ] Is everything okay with you, Marcoh? You seemed very upset earlier about telling me you loved me.
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Or rather, I'm not so angry with him as much as I am the situation. [ ... ] I do wish that he hadn't been hunted down like a dog and executed in front of everybody. That bothered me.
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I do wish they had mentioned a little more too.
[ He will be honest about that much, but it's evident he's like. Not even remotely mad at Uruha, nor Saber. ]
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In a perfect world, I would have preferred that more people had known about it before it happened. A good amount of us would have liked to say goodbye, but... I understand that is not always possible. [ he shifts, rubbing at his wrists. ] As I told Ellie - I dislike being reminded of the unpredictability of the battlefield.
[ having to see a midtrial and then an off schedule execution made everything feel a little out of control, and that is why he shut down, but... it had to be done. he can't really be angry. ]
But that is my problem, not Uruha's, and not Saber's.
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But Yoji is prone to shutting people out, or assuming he is disliked, especially for this. He would sooner assume you want your space away from him than the opposite.
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Silly man. [ he says, with a half-amused huff. ] ... I'll talk to him. Perhaps tomorrow, as - today was a nightmare.
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[ GOOFY ]
I am kind of wishing I stop getting effects that make me say or feel weird things about relationships.
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I'm sorry. I do hope it wasn't too awkward, though I'm not... entirely sure what the story was between the three of you.
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I'm assuming it was probably the same for them both, but I just really felt like I needed you and them to know that I like you better than either of them do?
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Well, if it makes you feel better, I was convinced everybody loved me, whether that was true or not.
[ which was a very sweet sentiment, honestly, but also i love me a karen top level. ]
I imagine someone must have thought I am very pathetic indeed, to have all this done. How embarrassing.
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[ That's so funny help. ]
I don't think that drink raining from the sky all morning yesterday helped either.
[ Honestly the dead are probably doing like half of this to them. ]
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[ honestly yeah this smells like the graveyard ]
... The drink. Oh. Hm. That makes a lot of things make sense, actually.
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[ Except this is Tuesday but who knows maybe Jiaoqiu also did some nonsense. ]
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This has been an eventful week, and we aren't even halfway through it. [ a beat. ] Is everything okay with you, Marcoh? You seemed very upset earlier about telling me you loved me.
[ he does not seem offended, he's just curious. ]
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[ A little awkward. Then as best sincerely as he can, ]
Yoji gets jealous easily and I don't want to upset him.
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a beat, and then there's a genuine smile on his face. ]
Ah, I think he'd understand a curse. [ ... ] So the two of you, then...?
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[ But yeah he nods, a little stiffly like he's not generally used to being able to admit something like this but. He can now! And it's nice. ]
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I'm happy for you. And I'm glad you allowed yourself that happiness.
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Thanks. It's -- it's been nice.
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Truly it is a blessing to find something like this after death. A surprise, too, but the battlefield does make for harrowing bonding.
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I don't think the place matters too much.
[ Then again, Marcoh's been lowkey in crisis mode his entire life so maybe he just doesn't really know. ]
I was a little surprised he actually said yes, but... yeah.
[ Yaaay! ]
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Why would you be surprised?
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[ As you do. ]
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[ He thinks that is maybe the phrase? Some parts personal stuff but that's all aside. ]
It's alright, we have figured it out. It might not be for forever but I wouldn't pass on it for anything.
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I see. [ ... ] I understand more than you might think, in... all of those aspects, actually.
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