[ Marcoh's feelings are a bit more layered. It's been a rollercoaster, from thinking he'd go straight to hell to arriving in a pleasant heaven. Being told he could go back, a chance he couldn't reject no matter what because he had something he valued more than the weight of his own soul out there. Then things quickly went straight to hell and he couldn't even argue that perhaps this was how it was always meant to be for him after all.
A lot of him still dreads these last few days, still filled with tense anxiety about home, about Venere, because like it or not, he's two months late and he needs to go back but you all almost root him down, too. ]
[ he reaches to pat marcoh's arm. he doesn't miss! wow, it's so fckin great to be able to see!!! ]
... I would not choose to forget any of it happening, even so. [ there's a little flicker of basilio in his mind's eye - followed by all of the people he loves most in this place. marcoh is obviously in there.
a fleeting thought: I like the person I am with all of you. ]
[ He nods. He did expect as much when Jiaoqiu mentioned asking some Astral Express even though Marcoh has no idea who that is, but the fact that he's unfamiliar probably meant it was a home thing. ]
You'll have a lot of stories to bring back to your general.
[ the weight is the reason that he doesn't feel much anymore - but he has felt a little less nihilistic, lately. the people he's met here have been so instrumental in dragging him out of the muck. ]
I don't know that I would feel right burdening them with all of this. [ ... ] Jing Yuan will be there. I suppose I will be going closer to his timeline than my own.
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[ Marcoh's feelings are a bit more layered. It's been a rollercoaster, from thinking he'd go straight to hell to arriving in a pleasant heaven. Being told he could go back, a chance he couldn't reject no matter what because he had something he valued more than the weight of his own soul out there. Then things quickly went straight to hell and he couldn't even argue that perhaps this was how it was always meant to be for him after all.
A lot of him still dreads these last few days, still filled with tense anxiety about home, about Venere, because like it or not, he's two months late and he needs to go back but you all almost root him down, too. ]
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[ he reaches to pat marcoh's arm. he doesn't miss! wow, it's so fckin great to be able to see!!! ]
... I would not choose to forget any of it happening, even so. [ there's a little flicker of basilio in his mind's eye - followed by all of the people he loves most in this place. marcoh is obviously in there.
a fleeting thought: I like the person I am with all of you. ]
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You'll have a lot of stories to bring back to your general.
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Ah, she'll barely believe them. [ a little smile. ] I don't know how I'll explain it... but I suppose I'll have Jing Yuan to back me up.
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[ To be able to recount it as a ridiculous fucking story. ]
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I will hope for that to be the truth. [ ... ] Maybe I won't tell her at all.
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I don't think you need to talk about it. I just hope it won't weigh you down.
[ Perhaps hypocritical of Marcoh who does in fact go on to never tell anybody all the things he's seen in Prehevil but. He wants best for Jiaoqiu. ]
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[ the weight is the reason that he doesn't feel much anymore - but he has felt a little less nihilistic, lately. the people he's met here have been so instrumental in dragging him out of the muck. ]
I don't know that I would feel right burdening them with all of this. [ ... ] Jing Yuan will be there. I suppose I will be going closer to his timeline than my own.
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[ Memory and remembering and growth, right? Maybe. ]
I hope it goes well for you, Jiaoqiu.
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I hope it goes well for you too, Marcoh.
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